So, I'm writing again. For myself and for those I love and who love me who might have some interest in these thoughts.
Last night, as I awaited with John for the "ball to drop", I watched an interesting interview Charlie Rose did with the actor, Bill Murray.
. It was from February of 2014 and I found it fascinating. I've always enjoyed watching Murray in films and especially enjoyed his latest, "St. Vincent." In the interview Murray kept stressing that his focus in this season of his life is to "be available" to life. For Bill Murray, to "be available" is to pay attention to the here and now, to not be distracted. To be fully involved in life. Though he can be somewhat cryptic, that made some sense to me. It is so tempting to be distracted especially in this season of life. One can fill life up with anxiety about the future and about the present. The struggles, illnesses, and deaths of contemporaries is every day news. Every week it seems there is a doctors visit scheduled and a new ache or pain or physical limitation.
Yet, and it is a big and grace-filled yet, the days are also filled with opportunities and challenges and the possibility of adventure. One of the greatest opportunities, I think, is the opportunity to be grateful for what is. This past Saturday, all the children and grandchildren (twenty of us) gathered in our small living room to exchange Christmas gifts. As I looked around the room I was overwhelmed with a sense of gratitude for the day, the opportunity, and most of all the people. Who am I to be so blessed.